Poems: Life

Basement Spider Feeding

Life

October 15, 2006

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Life is too powerful.

Small things cling to it

inseparably.

A spider will fight to the death for it.

A person will murder

other persons

for it.

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Small things.

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One’s life is invaluable;

others’ lives of no value at all.

Or at least, of little value.

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Small things.

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Value has no meaning,

but in life

meaning has no value.

Ironic, then,

to value one’s meaninglessness.

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But life is strong,

and some things

cannot be changed.

Value is what stops life being taken –

no more could a spider

bite itself.

Only strength or ignorance

can overcome life,

and I have neither.

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Still

death comes in many forms

and one day

a way will be found.

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Small things.

~

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Poems: Creating Nothing

Graves of Viola Burke & Mary Douglas

Creating Nothing

December 31, 2004

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So long has been the night

Since my descent began

I am losing the memories

Whose few, I treasure

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Eternal hours spent

In replacing creation with reverie

So many times failed

Things I could grasp

Are now beyond belief

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My mind is dying

And what I bring upon myself

Prepares my funeral

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Weakness now, in writing

Proof for my scorn

What I am to be

Becomes a shell of what I was to have

Consciousness fades

And with wide plains behind me

I continue down this canyon

To the bottom of despair

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Music I Love: “Tonight’s Decision”, Katatonia (1999)

Tonight's decision

Katatonia (not to be confused with Welsh band Catatonia) have been producing miserable and gloomy music for over two decades now, and have only secured and matured their sound with each successive album. Their music could best be described as atmospheric doom metal; metal it is, but there are so many acoustic and quiet sections that it’s hard to define them as “doom” metal, which usually features death growls (of which there are none).

Actually, not quite. Katatonia did start out as a straight up metal band, death growls and all, with their debut release Dance of December Souls introducing their bleak and melancholy sound, but with much heavier guitars and growled vocals. This was followed by Brave Murder Day, on which the absolutely fantastic Mikael Åkerfeldt gave it his all with his trademark death vocals.

And then, it all changed. Åkerfeldt, with his full-time commitment to his band Opeth (about whom I’ve written previously), left, and they were left with Jonas Renske, who was really only a singer, not a growler. And so they released Discouraged Ones, which cemented their style as a clean-sung doom metal band. With tracks such as I Break, they defined a sound of moody, atmospheric and gloomy harmonies, and even the heavy guitars seemed softer, and less intrusive. (The heaviness actually returns later, but at that time they were becoming ever softer).

And then came Tonight’s Decision. Essentially a kind of concept album without a story (only misery and a tirade against an unknown person who seems to have torn Renske’s heart out), it begins with the mesmerizing off-ryhthm guitars of For My Demons, which give way to the heaviness and Renske’s mournful singing:

You would never sleep at night

If you knew what I’ve been through

And this thought is all I have

To trust upon when life is gone

For My Demons – Katatonia, 1999

From here the album winds seamlessly on, a musical journey through slow misery, both heavy and quiet. The gorgeous This Punishment and A Darkness Coming are some of their finest acoustic tracks, heart-rending and beautiful.

Katatonia went on to release Viva Emptiness, which saw a return to the harder and faster style of their roots, maintaining a relatively heavy sound throughout. With The Great Cold Distance came a change in sound, with songs ranging from extremely heavy to very quiet within the space of a few seconds. Bass-heavy and dominating, this sound persisted on Night Is the New Day, though the album was significantly slower in style than The Great Cold Distance and Viva Emptiness.

Their most recent release, Dead End Kings, continues this musical journey, and I can’t wait to see where they go from here. For me though, Tonight’s Decision represents the turning point in their career, where their gloom and doom was really solidified.

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