I have spoken of My Dying Bride before in this series, but their canon of despair is vast, and bears revisiting. Here is a tale of utter wretchedness, loneliness, bitterness and despair.
Imagine, for a moment, the abyss of complete isolation. Alone, upon an isle, lost at the end of the world. The sole companion – a light, that burns for no man.
Now consider the wretchedness of the memories of her, of the love that completed you, that made your heart whole, and the bitter knowledge that she is forever gone. Gone, to the winds, dust to the ground, and your fate is to live forever alone, never to be redeemed. Such have the gods done to you.
And the dreams, and the thoughts of madness. Sometimes, the sight of home behind closed eyes, the green trees and the laughter; sometimes, the waking to madness, the knowledge that such a past is forever gone. And sometimes, the bird visits; taunts, tells of life, and raises hope – only to dash it, like the water upon the rocks.
And then, just as the torment becomes the day and the night, to be expected forevermore – the gods bring mercy, and hope beyond hope! They make an offer: to spend one, single night with the woman, the long lost love. But oh, there is a price; this one night would seal the fate of eternity alone, until the ending of life.
Would you take it? Would you throw your hopes to the rocks, for one night with her?
The agony, the soul-crushing blackness, to wake the morning, and to find – after that one, oh-so-brief night – that she is gone. And gone, now and then, for ever, and ever. The doom, the screams, the despair.
Such is the terrible fate of the man who tends the light at the end of the world.
An isle, a bright shining isle
stands forever, alone in the sea.
Of rock and of sand and grass
and shade, the isle bereft of trees.
Small. A speck in the wide blue sea. ’Tis the last of all the land. A dweller upon our lonesome isle, the last, lonely man?
By the Gods he is there to never leave, to remain all his life. His punishment for evermore, to attend the eternal light.
The lighthouse, tall and brilliant white, which stands at the end of the world. Protecting ships and sailors too, from rocks they could be hurled.
Yet nothing comes and nothing
goes ’cept the bright blue sea.
Which stretches near and far
away, ’tis all our man can see.
Though, one day, up high on
rock, a bird did perch and cry.
An albatross, he shot a glance.
and wondered deeply, why?
Could it be a watcher sent?
A curse sent from the gods.
who sits and cries and stares at him,
the life that they have robbed.
Each year it comes to watch
over him, the creature from above.
Not a curse but a reminder of
the woman that he loved.
On weary nights, under stars,
he’d often lay and gaze.
Up toward the moon and stars.
The sun’s dying haze.
Time and again, Orion’s light
filled our man with joy.
Within the belt, he’d see his love,
remembering her voice.
The twinkle from the stars above,
bled peace into his heart.
As long as she looks down on him,
he knows they’ll never part.
One day good, one day bad.
The madness, the heat, the sun.
Out to sea, he spies upon land.
His beloved Albion.
Cliffs of white and trees of green.
Children run and play.
“My home land,” he cries and weeps,
“why so far away?”
Eyes sore and red. Filled with tears,
he runs toward the sea.
To risk his life, a worthy cause,
for home he would be.
Into the sea, deep and blue,
the waters wash him clean.
Awake. He screams. Cold with sweat.
And Albion a dream.
Such is life upon the isle,
of torment and woe.
One day good. One day bad.
And some days even hope.
The light at the end of the world
burns bright for mile and mile and mile.
Yet tends the man, its golden glow,
in misery all the while?
For fifty years he stands and waits,
atop the light, alone.
Looking down upon his isle
the Gods have made his home.
The watcher at the end of the world
through misery does defile.
Remembers back to that single night
and allows a tiny smile.
(His sacrifice was not so great,
he insists upon the world.
Again he would crime,
Again he would pay
for one moment with the girl.)
Her hair, long and black it shone.
The dark, beauty of her eyes.
Olive skin and warm embrace,
her memory never dies.
’Twas years ago, he remembers clear
the life they once did live.
Endless love and lust for life,
they promised each would give.
Alas, such love and laughter too,
was short as panting breath.
For one dark night, her soul was kissed,
by the shade of death.
(Agony, like none before,
was suffered by our man)
who tends the light now burning bright
on the very last of land.
(Anger raged and misery too
like nothing ever before.)
He cursed the Gods and man and life,
and at his heart he tore.
A deity felt sympathy
and threw our man a light.
“Your woman you may see again
for a single night.
But think hard and well young man,
there is a price to pay:
to tend the light at the end of the world
is where you must stay.
Away from man and life and love.
Alone you will be.
On a tiny isle. A bright shining isle
in the middle of the sea.”
“I’ll tend the light, for one more night
with the woman whom I love,”
screamed the man, with tearful eyes,
to the deity above.
And so it was that very night,
his lover did return.
To his arms and to their bed,
together they did turn.
In deepest love and lust and passion,
entwined they did fall.
Lost within each other’s arms,
they danced (in lover’s hall.)
Long was the night and filled with love.
For them the world was done.
Awoke he did to brightest light,
his woman and life had gone.
To his feet he leapt. To the sea he looked.
To the lighthouse on the stone.
The price is paid and from now on
he lives forever alone.
Fifty years have passed since then
and not a soul has he seen.
But his woman lives with him still
in every single dream.
’Tis sad to hear how young love has died,
to know that, alone, someone has cried.
But memories are ours to keep.
To live them again, in our sleep.