Did It Hurt?

Did I upset you
when I told you how I felt?

Did it hurt
when I spoke my truth?

Did you wonder
where it came from
or why I hadn’t said anything
before?

The wounds of our life
can fade
and even though they scar
they eventually cease to hurt

But this new pain …

New, and yet so old
one you never thought to feel
again

Oh, this pain
for me
will last.

 

The Man Who Never Was

There was a boy, once;
alone,
and scared,
and filled with the blackest thoughts
of life and death

and love.

The boy cried,
and bled his veins,
and scarred his skin forever
because he thought he knew love.

But love cannot last
(or can it?)
And the boy grew into a man
in all ways but one:
deep, down inside he remained a boy,
filled with the blackest thoughts
of life and death and love.

The world saw only the man
and couldn’t understand
when he huddled on the ground,
trembling—
screaming—
crying.

The boy, fighting to get out.

So they helped him,
coaxed him,
taught him to be a man—
the man they wanted him to be—
when all he wanted,
the boy deep down,
was love.

And now the man trembles,
and screams,
and cries all over again

Because,
as it turns out,
love lasts forever.

Thought of the Week: Depression Is…

It’s been quite some time since I’ve turned my hand to poetry, but since I’ve been writing such a voracious amount of prose lately, it felt about the right time. I make no promises for its quality, but maybe it’ll ring true with one or two of you.

 

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Depression Is…

 

Night time vision on a sunlit day

The inability to accept proof of reality

Feeling your stomach churn at the sight of happiness

Knowing you’ll die alone

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Incapacity

Sleeping all day when there are things to do

Writing furiously and loathing the outcome

Knowing your life is worthless

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Scars on an arm that you hide from everyone

Wanting to drown in black memory

The past being ever better than the present

Knowing there is nothing yet to come

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Going to work every day, not knowing why

Coming home to mess, and anger, and disappointment

Wanting to forget everything and everyone

Knowing there is no escape…no hope

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