Thought of the Week: Return to the Fold

Wow. It’s been almost a month since I last wrote a post on here, and it feels like forever. Luckily for you I had some prescheduled posts for you to read, but last week was pretty much a blank, and I apologize for that. I was kind of off my head when I got back from my three-week work training, and it’s taken me a while to reacclimatize to normal life. I’ve been on and off between depression and lethargy (actually I suppose those two kind of go hand in hand, don’t they), and I certainly couldn’t bring myself to do any writing. Even the Daily Photos stopped, and I do have some lovely pictures to share with you all.

However, it’s not all doom and gloom – I’m back, and I’m recommitting to my writing, here and elsewhere. I have some interesting things to say, and some serious hard work in front of me, and the only way I’m going to get through it is by going one day at a time.

The first thing I need to let you all know is that for the foreseeable future all work on The Redemption of Erâth: Exile and A Gothic Symphony is going to stop. The reason for this is that I finally got my manuscript back from the editor, and while there was a lot of positive feedback, there’s also a lot to work on, including some rather major restructuring. I’m going to need to dive deep into the guts of the story and bring out some key characters in a way that I’d not done before, turn a few things on their heads, chop out some other stuff, and give it an overhaul. The good news is that I’ve got a good plan going now, and there are some chapters that are going to work more or less the way they are anyway.

I plan to post a more detailed overview of the comments and feedback from my editor – I’d love to hear what you think of them, especially if you’re already familiar with Brandyé’s story in the lands of Consolation. For now, I’ll leave you with this: The Redemption of Erâth: Consolation is not going to be ready by Christmas (which I had rather hoped it would be), but it will be coming in the new year. This book has been in the works now for over two years, and I want it to be as perfect as it can be. I hope you can bear with me while I work through these final revisions (and they are final – I’m going through the book one more damn time, and that’s it!), and look forward to being able to hold this book in your hands next year.

Lastly, thank you for all your incredible support – all 2,000+ of you. None of this would have happened without the the feedback and positivity I’ve received from so many of you.

Thank you!

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A Gothic Symphony: Chapter Five – A Day

6:29 AM.

The faint pattering of rain sounds from beyond the window, but the dismal gray morning light remains outside; the black curtain, drawn, lets so little in.

What light there is comes from the soft red glow of the clock; the flashing display of the stereo; the tiny glint of reflection on Amy’s eyes as she lies in bed. The eyes stare emptily at the black ceiling.

The alarm goes off, buzzing in patterns, first once, then twice, then three times. For a full minute it continues its din. Then a hand flails and hits it to silence.

The light flicks on, and is strange in that it’s capped by a red filter. The room is awash in dim crimson, shadows murky. Amy’s eyes still stare, and look black.

A bird calls through the rain, and Amy pulls back the covers. An overlarge t-shirt is draped across her shoulders, and the blood is dried and cracked on her arms. She sits up. Cuts are on the inside of her thigh as well — not as deep.

She examines the cuts. The dried blood is very black in the dim light; she scrapes it away, lets it fall to the floor. Beneath, the deeper cuts ooze, the lighter ones raised and swollen.

When she stands, she takes a towel from the floor — a big one that hangs to her knees — and drapes it over her shoulders. She wraps it tight, and the cuts are hidden. She unlatches her door, leaves the room in dim red light, steps out into the hallway.

 ~

7:15 AM.

The father is hiding behind a newspaper; black coffee steams beside him. The kitchen lights are bright, because the dawn is missing from the sky. Thick, dark clouds peer through the window instead, pouring their rain down upon the lawn.

The mother is not up.

There are footsteps on the stairs; Amy appears in the kitchen. Dressed in black, wet hair, glasses on. Her nose ring isn’t there. She walks across the kitchen, which isn’t large, for the coffee pot, still hot on the counter. Opens the cupboard, takes down a large mug.

“Don’t drink it all,” the father says. He doesn’t look up from the paper, doesn’t look at her. “Your mother’ll want some, and I want some more.”

Amy looks at the pot. There is enough for about two cups. “Can I make some more?” she asks.

“It’s a waste of coffee.”

“I’ll buy more.”

“You never buy more. You just drink what I buy.” All this while, he doesn’t look at her. He flips a page.

Amy doesn’t respond, except to take the coffee jar from a different cupboard. She tops up the coffee maker, with coffee and then with water. It hisses, gurgles, starts to drip more coffee into the carafe.

Amy pours herself a mug of coffee.

“You shouldn’t drink so much,” the father says. “You’re too young.”

“I’m almost seventeen.”

“You’re too young,” he repeats. […]

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A Gothic Symphony: Chapter Four – Possibilities

“Are you sure you want to do this?”

“Yes, absolutely. We’ve been together for two years now; it’s about time.”

The apartment was small, she thought. Ridiculously small, in fact, and their boxes were filling it to the point where it was a squeeze just to get in the front door. Was this really the best they could do?

From the bedroom she heard him cursing, and sighed. Yes, she loved him, and yes, he was an angry pain in the ass. “What is it now?” she called.

“I can’t find it,” he called back. “I remember putting it in one of my bedroom boxes, and it isn’t here!”

“What are you even looking for?”

“My toothbrush!”

This was starting to give her a headache. “Your toothbrush? We can buy a new one.”

“No! It’s a waste of money.”

This wasn’t a conversation she was going to continue, and she turned back to her own boxes. They were going to have to get rid of a whole lot of stuff, and it was probably going to be mostly her stuff. She was a little worried when he realized how many boxes were filled with her clothes. And shoes.

They hadn’t really talked about possessions when the conversation came up to move in together; it had mostly revolved around money (mostly brought up by him), and the idea that if they were both paying rent on one apartment, they’d have a lot more money left over to enjoy life. It had certainly seemed tempting at the time.

In which case, she wasn’t quite sure why their apartment was so small. It was in a nicer part of town, yes, but not that nice. There were still beggars on the corner — just not prostitutes.

She took the last pile of plates out of the box and put them on top of another pile of plates which were balanced on a tea tray that hung half off the edge of the kitchen counter, then tossed the box onto the floor. Shelby screeched.

“Sorry!” she exclaimed. “Didn’t see you there. Can’t you keep out of the way for now?”

Shelby mewed disapproval and scowled at her, and slunk back to the windowsill. It had taken a lot of convincing to get him to accept her cat. Her pussy, as he vulgarly called him sometimes. She hated him when he did that. He wasn’t allergic — he just didn’t much like cats. It didn’t really matter though, because Shelby didn’t much like him.

She reflected that they weren’t even supposed to have him here. The landlady had a bizarre rule forbidding male pets. Technically, Shelby wasn’t really a boy anymore, but she didn’t think the landlord would debate the difference. They just called him Shelly when she was around.

She stripped and flatted the box, and started on a new one. Damn, there really wasn’t much room.

Suddenly, there was a cry from the bedroom, and he burst out, holding some little box in his hands. […]

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